confusion on planetCOCky

so theres a point in everyones life where they feel confused about EVERYTHING ! this is kind of that time for me .. *gibberish-ryan leslie playing* .. where do i begin .. im confused about family, love, business, school, and everything in between . im only 19 years old and i went thru more things than yew can imagine .. but i cant always hold everything in .. so im gonna use this blog to help express myself. FAMILY .. me and my mom dont always get along .. who am i kidding?! we never get along . i love her with all my heart but lets be realistic .. we cant be around eachother for too long .. we always clash! she just complains about everything i DONT do. (not tryna get too detailed on that) lol. moving along .. LOVE .. im still in love with the same kid .. in an earlier blog i mentioned how i thought it was kewl for us to be friends until we actually made that move to be with eachother .. oh how that backfired .. lol. so i recently discovered that he had a girlfriend. he didnt tell me about her because he "didnt think she was that important to ruin our relationship" ... yea umm ok .. i guess. lol. im not worried at all .. real love never dies ! me and jerry belong together .. this is sumthing i noe .. and as long as he keeps loving me (which he reminds me everyday) .. my heart will always belong to him .. lol.. next topic .. BUSINESS.. i dont noe wat the hell i wanna do ! at first i wanted to be a teacher then i wanted to be a hair stylist .. my cousin said "its normal" lol. hopefully i noe wa i wanna do by next year. then theres school ... so my mom has been really hard on me because she wanted me to work 1st .. so i did but now i feel stuck ! she wants me to go to school and work .. oh theres so much .. im going thru alot of things right now . im getting teary eyed right now so ima end this here.